Real update this time!

Hello people! Poooof!!! I'm back.. but of course not for long. Haha. First of all, I just entered the new semester. Just? Okay.. maybe like a month ago. I am now in part 4! 2 more semesters and I'll have Diploma certificate in my hand. Insyaallah.. But that's not what I'm looking for. I can't wait to enter the real university and do my Degree yaw! But the new semester is pretty much exciting because I got so much things to do.

Many things to do = TIRED

So.. what am I up to?
Due to so-called popular demand among from college friends, (aww.. perasannya saya =P) I went for my college Student's Representative Council a.k.a MPP (Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar) interview, and yuh, I got enrolled! ;)

Frankly speaking, I never knew what KPTM student council have done all this while. I have always been pessimist towards them, the clubs and the activities in college. And now I know the truth.

Do you know that we are the one who actually organize the Dean's List Award Ceremony? The Graduation Night? Not to mention the Majlis Berbuka Puasa as well as the Majlis Raya. Honestly, event management it's not an easy task. We have to juggle with our classes' assignment and MPP's task. It has been only a week since the first meeting but I tell you, I've worn out now. I also got other things to do, like my personal things and adding all this up, I couldn't get an adequate time to have a proper rest. I am physically and mentally tired too. I missed home and I can't wait to go back on this weekend! But I'm not sure whether I can have a good rest. I got my primary school's and CBN reunions on the SAME day! Awww mann... =(

But being in a community like MPP which involves power is totally a new thing to me. And I enjoy exploring it. For which I know that everyone has his/her own hidden agenda and the politics take part among the members. Hmm.. ;)

I don't think so I'm going to regret joining MPP. This is what I wanted to do after all. Somehow, I also applied what I've learnt throughout my life. For example like I have a basic knowledge of using Adobe Photoshop. I got to applied my skills here. Back then in NS, I also got exposed with event management a bit and here I am now, learning the right way in handling an event and following the right procedure.

By all these means, it is more for my self-actualization. I know, I do have a thing with event management and leadership. I know my own ability. What I'm currently doing, is just take my abilities to a further step. But at second thought, I would listen to Mama not to take Degree in Event Management. I'm experiencing here. And it is TIRING. HA.HA.

I got thrilled with all this hectic routine everyday!
But doesn't mean I won't complaining. Haha.
And oh, I feel bad for my girls because I'm no longer that free to hang out with them.
Take care girls.
XOXO.
Gossip girls.

;)

p/s: I'm a Sports & Recreation Exco.

Derita Merindu

Kau katakan cinta gunakan akal
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang menyangkal
Bagaimana nak kekal
Kau katakan cinta gunakan minda
Bila aku gunakan, kau yang tak percaya
Bagaimana nak bahagia

Maafmu tak bererti, kau mudah sesali
Berulang kali telah kau mungkiri
Manis mulut berjanji terpedaya lagi
Menanti biar terus didustai

Kaulah bahagia bagiku
Kaulah derita bagimu
Esok lusamu
Tak ku kenal lagi engkau siapa

Dan aku cuba sedaya upaya
Telah ku usaha dengan sepenuh jiwa
Bagaimana hendak ku lupa
bayangan wajahmu selalu di depan mata
harum baumu masih dapat ku hidu
Bagaimana ingin aku membencimu
Jikalau setiap hari merindu
Sekiranya derita merinduimu itu sebenarnya bahagia..
Aku pilih derita..

Mungkinkah esok atau lusa walau biarpun lama
Akan ku biar tiada ku tetap kan setia
Entah bila akan tiba sampai jua harimu yang sama
Esok seperti semalaman yang tak berubah

Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula
Kaulah tanda tanya.. kau tiada titik noktah
Ku dibuai mimpi lena dikejut igau semula

Seandainya kau berada di depan mata
Mudah untuk aku berkata-kata
Supaya dapatku melihat seraut wajahmu
Walaupun belum tentu kau mahu bertemu
Apalagi memandangku
Setelah ku turutkan segala kemahuan kau mainkan perasaan
Begitu mudah kau ucapkan terimalah saja kenyataan..
Aku masih terkilan

Jika kau dapat memahami hati seorang perindu
Baru kau tahu derita hatiku
Jika suatu hari nanti giliran kau merindu
Baru kau ingat derita diriku
Segala yang berlaku bukan kemahuanku
Apa gunanya bahgia
Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu
Aku pilih derita merinduimu

Baby

You're everything I thought you never were and nothing like I thought you could have been. But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that? You're the only one I wish I could forget, the only one I love to not forgive and though you break my heart, you are the only one. Though there are times when I hate you cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me and put tears on my face and even now, while I'm hurt, it pains me to say I know I'll be there at the end of the day.

There's something that I feel I need to say but up until now I've always been afraid that you would never come around and still I wanna put this out. You say you've got the most love for me but sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me and still, you're in my heart but you're the only one. And yes, there are times when I hate you, but I don't complain because I've been afraid that you would walk away. But now I don't hate you, I'm happy to say that I will be there at the end of the day.

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be. I'm living in a world that's more than about you and me. I ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free to spread my wings and fly away, away with you..

I don't wanna be without you my baby. I don't want a broken heart. Don't wanna take a breath without you my baby. I don't wanna play that part. I know that I love you, but let me just say, I don't wanna love you in no kind of way. I don't want a broken heart. I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl.

Faking it

You are a very good actor don't you?

Every bit of your laugh

Every bit of your smile

Every bit of your anger

Every drop of your tears

Every word that you said

Surprisingly, they all were fake.

Thanks for faking it.

I don't remember any truthful moment with you.

All I know all those memories are awfully fake.

Faking one whole fucking year!

Aidiladha and Nur Kasih

I woke up pretty late today because I could not sleep well last night. It was a very hot night which I found disturbing. Anyway, today my family celebrated Hari Raya Aidiladha. After I had lunch, me and my sisters had movie marathon. Haha. Yea, so the spirit is gone.. What else can we do? Not to mention, I didn't really expect any guest to come and pay us a visit. :P

Oh, speaking of movie.. My sister and I have found a new interest! Guess what? Movie rental! There is a video store at Jusco AU2 provides movie rental service. Not only movies but drama series also. Although the rental, of course, is not free but I found it convenient. Yes, downloading movie is free and won't cost me a cent but come on, it's sickening to wait for the download to finish. It's BOring. Some more, the rental for 1 DVD is RM 3 for 3 days, won't hurt your wallet so much right? Ka-ching!

I'm not so sure what did I do today. Maybe entertaining guests, talking, chewing and eating some more, talking and eating some more. And poof! I didn't realized that I was stuffing myself. This is bad. I haven't work out lately. Wuuuuuuuu~ Fortunately, "summer" is back! No more rainy days. I'm looking forward to get some exercises. ;)

Another good thing is tonight is the final episode of Nur Kasih. All of my family members gathered in front of TV and watched it together. Of course we were so eager to know the ending and came up with many speculations toward the ending. But boohoo~ to them because my speculation is the right one! Hehe. There are so many things that I like about this drama. The story plot and the twists are both good. Although there are certain things that are cliche but they managed to visualize it very well. Second thing is the different role for each main character. Lastly, of course the great job on cinematography. And the ending where they showed Aidil, Adam and their father on a desert is very symbolic. One of Adam's leg stuck into the burning ground and Aidil gave his hand to him. Isn't the message is pretty obvious?

Anyways, the drama is beautifully done, I'd say. Cannot wait for its movie! Of course I have a higher expectation for the movie.

Well, that would wrap my post today. Nitey nite readers! =)